exactly one year ago today... he just learned how to smile (3 mos.)
Friday, April 23, 2010
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
You thought you were going to get pictures…
I had every intention of updating again last night because I really have a lot on my brain these days. I knew that I was not going to post pictures but I also knew that I had an explanation for you about why. However, my internet decided to quit working, so I guess that was my queue to get off the computer. Oh, and let me just fore-warn you, this is a long posting. I was really surprised that Blogger let me post such a long entry.
I am struggling with posting all of what I am about to say. I am also finding that I am saying that quite often lately. I am not sure if it is because I shouldn’t post it or more so, I am just scared to. Hmm. So, I am just going to quit being scared and just do it. I will know in a day, week, or even month, if I shouldn’t have posted and I will know not to do it again.
All of my thoughts that are floating in my brain right now were re-kindled this weekend when my husband and I had a rather large … shall I say “discussion”? Yeah, I guess that is the nicest way of putting it. Just to give you some background information, and to make a long story short, I absolutely hate to clean my house and I am very lazy when it comes to that. Call me crazy or anything else you want, but that is just me. However, Wayne despises this trait of mine. He is very OCD about everything. Every item in our house needs its own special place. Because we are on opposite ends of the spectrum, it sometimes does get heated when it comes to cleaning our house. So, you can just imagine what happens when it goes a week or so when I haven’t “helped” around the house. Do I know that I have a problem? Yes! Do I want to fix it? Yes, until I get home and have to fix it. I really hope that I am not the only one out there like this. Well, I hope my mom and I are not the only ones out there like this. :) (Love you, Mom!)
Well, during our “discussion” this weekend, I was told that I was an awesome mother to Jackson but was a “not-so-great helpmeet” to Wayne. I am aware of this. So, everything he told me was NOT news to me. Ever since Jackson was born, I have struggled with balancing my time. It is not easy being a mom that works outside of the home full time. I want so bad to spend more time with Jackson and Wayne as well, but there never seems to be enough time in the day. When I get home, I just want to spend as much time as I can with Jackson and my family, in general -- I don’t want to clean. However, I don’t want to do it on the weekends either… and know that is where my laziness kicks in. I have also faced the fact that my computer time has been consuming my evenings as well (after Jackson goes to bed). If it is not Facebook, it is my blog or reading other blogs. In the process of updating my blog, it takes time to think and write as well as edit pictures. I am also a perfectionist when it comes to all things creative in my life, so editing pictures never takes less than 30 minutes to an hour.
So, now, I am finally getting to the point of why I don’t have pictures for you in this posting… I have made a decision to back off of my computer usage. I can tell you that I have only opened my Facebook account twice in the last 4 days… Please know that is a serious accomplishment for me. I know that all of you LOVE my blog and would hate to see me leave it, but I have to find different priorities. I am not telling you that I am going to quit. I don’t want to quit. In some ways, I do feel this is an outlet for me and my thoughts. I also love to update you all with how Jackson is growing and what he is doing “today”. However, it may turn into a weekly blog. I know there are some times it ends up being longer than a week for postings… but I promise to not leave you forever. I just need to figure out a schedule that I can work with that allows me to balance everything in my life. Is that possible? We’ll see…
Well, I have a whole nother (wow, that is not proper English!) story/entry to give you. And I was going to try and do them together, but this has really been long enough already! So, maybe tomorrow…
I am struggling with posting all of what I am about to say. I am also finding that I am saying that quite often lately. I am not sure if it is because I shouldn’t post it or more so, I am just scared to. Hmm. So, I am just going to quit being scared and just do it. I will know in a day, week, or even month, if I shouldn’t have posted and I will know not to do it again.
All of my thoughts that are floating in my brain right now were re-kindled this weekend when my husband and I had a rather large … shall I say “discussion”? Yeah, I guess that is the nicest way of putting it. Just to give you some background information, and to make a long story short, I absolutely hate to clean my house and I am very lazy when it comes to that. Call me crazy or anything else you want, but that is just me. However, Wayne despises this trait of mine. He is very OCD about everything. Every item in our house needs its own special place. Because we are on opposite ends of the spectrum, it sometimes does get heated when it comes to cleaning our house. So, you can just imagine what happens when it goes a week or so when I haven’t “helped” around the house. Do I know that I have a problem? Yes! Do I want to fix it? Yes, until I get home and have to fix it. I really hope that I am not the only one out there like this. Well, I hope my mom and I are not the only ones out there like this. :) (Love you, Mom!)
Well, during our “discussion” this weekend, I was told that I was an awesome mother to Jackson but was a “not-so-great helpmeet” to Wayne. I am aware of this. So, everything he told me was NOT news to me. Ever since Jackson was born, I have struggled with balancing my time. It is not easy being a mom that works outside of the home full time. I want so bad to spend more time with Jackson and Wayne as well, but there never seems to be enough time in the day. When I get home, I just want to spend as much time as I can with Jackson and my family, in general -- I don’t want to clean. However, I don’t want to do it on the weekends either… and know that is where my laziness kicks in. I have also faced the fact that my computer time has been consuming my evenings as well (after Jackson goes to bed). If it is not Facebook, it is my blog or reading other blogs. In the process of updating my blog, it takes time to think and write as well as edit pictures. I am also a perfectionist when it comes to all things creative in my life, so editing pictures never takes less than 30 minutes to an hour.
So, now, I am finally getting to the point of why I don’t have pictures for you in this posting… I have made a decision to back off of my computer usage. I can tell you that I have only opened my Facebook account twice in the last 4 days… Please know that is a serious accomplishment for me. I know that all of you LOVE my blog and would hate to see me leave it, but I have to find different priorities. I am not telling you that I am going to quit. I don’t want to quit. In some ways, I do feel this is an outlet for me and my thoughts. I also love to update you all with how Jackson is growing and what he is doing “today”. However, it may turn into a weekly blog. I know there are some times it ends up being longer than a week for postings… but I promise to not leave you forever. I just need to figure out a schedule that I can work with that allows me to balance everything in my life. Is that possible? We’ll see…
Well, I have a whole nother (wow, that is not proper English!) story/entry to give you. And I was going to try and do them together, but this has really been long enough already! So, maybe tomorrow…
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
It's been a while
But that is no secret. Is it?
We had a pretty exciting weekend. Wayne's birthday is today, my brother's was yesterday and my brother's fiancé's was last week. So we had lots of celebrations. Dinner on Saturday night and lunch on Sunday. Oh, and just for those making me accountable -- I did very well all weekend!! :) AND I didn't eat after 7:15pm except for Saturday night when I had a slice of cookie cake for Ben's (my brother's) celebration. I didn't get to walk as much as I really wanted to and I really felt it yesterday, but I made up for it tonight.
But back to celebrations... I made a mistake of not weighing myself on April 4th, when I "officially" started my journey. So, the only thing I can go by is the weight I was before I got the stomach bug a little over 3 weekends ago. And.......... drum roll please.......... :) I have lost NINE pounds! YIPPEE! I am on my way!
Oh, and sorry for being slack on the photos... please advance to next posting.
We had a pretty exciting weekend. Wayne's birthday is today, my brother's was yesterday and my brother's fiancé's was last week. So we had lots of celebrations. Dinner on Saturday night and lunch on Sunday. Oh, and just for those making me accountable -- I did very well all weekend!! :) AND I didn't eat after 7:15pm except for Saturday night when I had a slice of cookie cake for Ben's (my brother's) celebration. I didn't get to walk as much as I really wanted to and I really felt it yesterday, but I made up for it tonight.
But back to celebrations... I made a mistake of not weighing myself on April 4th, when I "officially" started my journey. So, the only thing I can go by is the weight I was before I got the stomach bug a little over 3 weekends ago. And.......... drum roll please.......... :) I have lost NINE pounds! YIPPEE! I am on my way!
Oh, and sorry for being slack on the photos... please advance to next posting.
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Off to a good start!
Well, I think it has been good for me to know that I have someone to be accountable to. I have had several comments about my last posting about losing weight and it has helped me get off on the right foot (and left). Monday night I walked with my dad and then I took Bo for a little walk later in the evening. Last night, I was tempted to stay in because I really wanted to watch the Biggest Loser but I knew that I still needed to get out. I needed to get a breath of fresh air any way. Oh, and I am glad I did.
I have also committed to myself and my step-mom that I would not eat anything after 7:15pm. Now, this can be a challenge for me as I usually do not get home until around 5:30. Then on top of getting dinner ready, it definitely can be tough. However, it has made me really think about what I do eat before bed time. Last night, Wayne grilled some BBQ pork chops and we had potatoes and corn on the cob. I think I finished just before 7:30. When I got back from walking, it was very hard for me to not snack on something, but I didn’t! I am so proud.
I know that I have to take this one day at a time but hopefully it will only get easier as I get myself into a routine.
I know I can… I know I can… I know I can…
I have also committed to myself and my step-mom that I would not eat anything after 7:15pm. Now, this can be a challenge for me as I usually do not get home until around 5:30. Then on top of getting dinner ready, it definitely can be tough. However, it has made me really think about what I do eat before bed time. Last night, Wayne grilled some BBQ pork chops and we had potatoes and corn on the cob. I think I finished just before 7:30. When I got back from walking, it was very hard for me to not snack on something, but I didn’t! I am so proud.
I know that I have to take this one day at a time but hopefully it will only get easier as I get myself into a routine.
I know I can… I know I can… I know I can…
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Happy Easter
I hope that everyone has had a wonderful Easter. Jackson and I have spent the day together. Wayne had to work today. My mom came over before church this morning and brought Jackson his Easter gift. He got a few books, a couple of outfits, a bathing suit, a Mega Blocks school bus, and a juice cup. After church, we had lunch at my grandmother's house. Jackson ate really well -- mashed potatoes, green bean casserole, deviled eggs, and beef stew. Oh, and I can't forget the homemade biscuits too. We had a very nice time seeing family and enjoying the nice Easter lunch.
We headed to see Wayne at work and spent just a few minutes. Then it was back home so that Nana and Papa (my dad and step-mom) could give Jackson his Easter gifts. He got a few more outfits, bubbles, snacks, more juice cups, a bath toy, and a book.
It has been a great day spending time with family. However, we were able to remember and reflect on the true meaning of Easter. That our Lord and Saviour died for us and pardoned us from hell if we chose to believe in him.
I leave you today with two things. One, the lyrics of the song In Christ Alone. This song really reminds me of what Christ did for me. Two, a picture of Jackson in his Easter outfit.
We headed to see Wayne at work and spent just a few minutes. Then it was back home so that Nana and Papa (my dad and step-mom) could give Jackson his Easter gifts. He got a few more outfits, bubbles, snacks, more juice cups, a bath toy, and a book.
It has been a great day spending time with family. However, we were able to remember and reflect on the true meaning of Easter. That our Lord and Saviour died for us and pardoned us from hell if we chose to believe in him.
I leave you today with two things. One, the lyrics of the song In Christ Alone. This song really reminds me of what Christ did for me. Two, a picture of Jackson in his Easter outfit.
In Christ Alone
In Christ alone my hope is found,
He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand.
In Christ alone! who took on flesh
Fulness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones he came to save:
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied -
For every sin on Him was laid;
Here in the death of Christ I live.
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain:
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave he rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.
No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.
He is my light, my strength, my song;
this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,
firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace,
when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!
My Comforter, my All in All,
here in the love of Christ I stand.
In Christ alone! who took on flesh
Fulness of God in helpless babe!
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones he came to save:
Till on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied -
For every sin on Him was laid;
Here in the death of Christ I live.
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain:
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave he rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me,
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.
No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me;
From life's first cry to final breath.
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand;
Till He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.
The date is only getting closer...
Ten pounds per month.
Is that really an over stated goal? I think it is attainable. (I really hope that is the word that fits there... checked out dictionary.com and it seems to be.) Being that the wedding is in early December, that basically leaves me eight months. Dropping around 80 pounds would be awesome. Even 60-70 pounds would be great.
My first hurdle: getting out to walk/run/exercise. I will work hard on this in the coming week. Bo would really enjoy an evening in the neighborhood.
Alright followers (even the silent/anonymous ones)... please keep me accountable. I will keep you posted. I promise!
Is that really an over stated goal? I think it is attainable. (I really hope that is the word that fits there... checked out dictionary.com and it seems to be.) Being that the wedding is in early December, that basically leaves me eight months. Dropping around 80 pounds would be awesome. Even 60-70 pounds would be great.
My first hurdle: getting out to walk/run/exercise. I will work hard on this in the coming week. Bo would really enjoy an evening in the neighborhood.
Alright followers (even the silent/anonymous ones)... please keep me accountable. I will keep you posted. I promise!
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Spring has sprung
And as you can tell, the blog spirit has left me...
In some ways, I don't want to just post pictures for you guys as that is not the purpose of a blog... even though it does capture our lives at that moment of the picture taking, that is where I felt like this blog was going. I want to be able to leave you with something to read, sometimes.
Maybe i am just slight bit frustrated that a photography class I signed up for fell through. I really want to learn how to use my camera the right way... the way it was meant to be used. I totally dislike the "full auto" feature. Yes, it usually takes the best pictures, however, it won't let me not use my flash when I don't want to use my flash. Yes, it may be kind of dark in the room, but I don't want my subject to be bright white because of a camera flash.
But on to brighter thoughts...
Last time you heard from me, Jackson got a hair cut. We have had more compliments on this little fella and his new do! Oh, and he got it just in time for this great new weather we have been having. Supposed to stay in the 80s this week. I am so glad we got an Easter outfit that was with shorts (a shout out thanks to Ben and Jessica). Mom bought him some sandals yesterday and I am really in love with those.
I was able to have a three day weekend with Jackson this weekend. His day care closed Friday, so I took off. Too bad Wayne has to work all weekend. Friday I spent most of the morning with Mom and we went Easter dress shopping for me. :) Love my new dress. Friday afternoon, Jackson took a 3 hour nap and I think mine was about 2 hours. :) We sat outside afterwards and ate some fruit and enjoyed the sunshine.
Today was a morning filled with an Easter egg hunt, then lunch with Wayne and napping. Jackson is still asleep now at 4:15. He will be well rested for the evening. Now, its time to start thinking about our dinner plans. Would love to cook out again (cheeseburgers on the grill were the best last night).
I will leave you with another picture... I took this Friday while Jackson and Bo were playing.
In some ways, I don't want to just post pictures for you guys as that is not the purpose of a blog... even though it does capture our lives at that moment of the picture taking, that is where I felt like this blog was going. I want to be able to leave you with something to read, sometimes.
Maybe i am just slight bit frustrated that a photography class I signed up for fell through. I really want to learn how to use my camera the right way... the way it was meant to be used. I totally dislike the "full auto" feature. Yes, it usually takes the best pictures, however, it won't let me not use my flash when I don't want to use my flash. Yes, it may be kind of dark in the room, but I don't want my subject to be bright white because of a camera flash.
But on to brighter thoughts...
Last time you heard from me, Jackson got a hair cut. We have had more compliments on this little fella and his new do! Oh, and he got it just in time for this great new weather we have been having. Supposed to stay in the 80s this week. I am so glad we got an Easter outfit that was with shorts (a shout out thanks to Ben and Jessica). Mom bought him some sandals yesterday and I am really in love with those.
I was able to have a three day weekend with Jackson this weekend. His day care closed Friday, so I took off. Too bad Wayne has to work all weekend. Friday I spent most of the morning with Mom and we went Easter dress shopping for me. :) Love my new dress. Friday afternoon, Jackson took a 3 hour nap and I think mine was about 2 hours. :) We sat outside afterwards and ate some fruit and enjoyed the sunshine.
Today was a morning filled with an Easter egg hunt, then lunch with Wayne and napping. Jackson is still asleep now at 4:15. He will be well rested for the evening. Now, its time to start thinking about our dinner plans. Would love to cook out again (cheeseburgers on the grill were the best last night).
I will leave you with another picture... I took this Friday while Jackson and Bo were playing.
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