Off to a good start!

Well, I think it has been good for me to know that I have someone to be accountable to. I have had several comments about my last posting about losing weight and it has helped me get off on the right foot (and left). Monday night I walked with my dad and then I took Bo for a little walk later in the evening. Last night, I was tempted to stay in because I really wanted to watch the Biggest Loser but I knew that I still needed to get out. I needed to get a breath of fresh air any way. Oh, and I am glad I did.

I have also committed to myself and my step-mom that I would not eat anything after 7:15pm. Now, this can be a challenge for me as I usually do not get home until around 5:30. Then on top of getting dinner ready, it definitely can be tough. However, it has made me really think about what I do eat before bed time. Last night, Wayne grilled some BBQ pork chops and we had potatoes and corn on the cob. I think I finished just before 7:30. When I got back from walking, it was very hard for me to not snack on something, but I didn’t! I am so proud.

I know that I have to take this one day at a time but hopefully it will only get easier as I get myself into a routine.

I know I can… I know I can… I know I can…

The date is only getting closer...

Ten pounds per month.

Is that really an over stated goal? I think it is attainable. (I really hope that is the word that fits there... checked out dictionary.com and it seems to be.) Being that the wedding is in early December, that basically leaves me eight months. Dropping around 80 pounds would be awesome. Even 60-70 pounds would be great.

My first hurdle: getting out to walk/run/exercise. I will work hard on this in the coming week. Bo would really enjoy an evening in the neighborhood.

Alright followers (even the silent/anonymous ones)... please keep me accountable. I will keep you posted. I promise!

Blah!

Kinda having one of those down days. I wish that I could get out of it. Nothing really bad happened, just emotions are a little low today. Do I think it is because of how horrible I feel about myself? Yep. Do I want to do something about it? Yep. Can I start doing something about it? Yes. Am I strong enough to keep on going? Hmm...

Sometimes I feel like I am in a vicious cycle. I eat because of stress/low emotions. I eat like the food is never going to be there again. In turn... I feel horrible. So, I stress more... and then eat even more... Food is my drug. A very harmful drug.

I've done it before -- started on the right track and kept a very strong will. About 8 months later, I looked and felt awesome. I set a goal and was 2-4 pounds away and I started eating again. Not sure what, at that point, made me start eating again, but I just kept telling myself "just a little more won't hurt". Oh, boy, was I wrong.

Not sure if getting this out has really helped. But thanks for listening... oh, um... reading.